Barely looking at her Jane continues to the door. "No. I simply do not wish to work for someone for whom drugs are such an easy way of life that they pass them out as easily as they would pass out candy from a piņata." Her chin juts out and makes a small sweeping gesture indicating the crowd around them. "I know that many people use drugs as an enhancement." "But." *sigh* "It's hard to explain." She stops then, looking for the words to explain what she herself really hadn't thought through. "If he hands that out now, before he even knows us. What types of activities is he going to ask of us. What things are the drugs going to dull our sensibilities to?" She pauses again, her lips fold inward, a look of indecision on her face, trying to decide, and then she looks up, and into Critters eyes and admits, "I have done things that are illegal," "But, I am not prepared to do evil." "And on this path, the path of shadows, it is I think far to possible to take one small step towards evil every day. Until you no longer recognize the person in the mirror. And to keep taking those steps until the evil that is outside calls you brother." "Drugs dull your senses to all of that, and evil becomes just a part of the good times" she pauses again a thoughtful expression on her face. "It would be easy for me to try and escape all of this." and she makes a sweeping gesture with her hand to indicate herself. "But if I do not have the courage to live my life and face it's pains with honesty, then," she pauses again searching for her feelings, "then, I am not my fathers daughter. Jane straightens again, calm, glad she understands herself better now. Glad even that she has found what she will not do, And turns once more to the door. She's not bothering to look around at all the party-goers anymore. Her young longings to be part of the fun, the old tears at never being invited, the pain at not being good enough gone. This isn't for her, this, isn't good enough for her.