[Wednesday July 8th, 2076; Robyn's Place, Below, London]
It had taken some serious disguise work on Isaint's part, but he had managed to get out and in again to Below without being detained - despite the fact that he was now actively engaging in the production and delivery of real explosives. 'Your honor, I'm no terrorist, I just happened to get involved in a weird job that made it necessary to transport bio-weapons through a shopping center and producing explosives in a shed.' He had to admit that this probably wouldn't hold water in any court of law. So now he was back underground with his new shiny toys and a 16kilo bag of TNT for Al.
"Fresh from the helpful elves, just don't use it all at once."
Somewhat relieved but tired he enjoyed the relative quiet of Robyn's place. Jackhammer and Iris where with the doctor, Rick was meditating, Robyn was using her contacts to send out the invites for the masquerade and Al was smoking - everything seemed to go according to plan. But for some reason Isaint couldn't relax. He felt as if he was standing beneath a power line, could almost feel the static electricity. Finally he recognized the feeling: This was his patron trying to talk to him while he wasn't fighting for his life. Ironically it was at these moments that he felt his connection get strongest, where he could almost make out words but certainly the intent the dragon slayer tried to convene. Well, there was a way to talk to him - after all he had practiced meditating over the last month not just so he could sit in the cramptastic Lotus position.
So it came that Isaint found Robyn's small cupboard turned of the lights, plugged his ears and shut off all electronic gadgets. For the first few minutes it actually was disorienting. He had been wearing his trode-net nonstop for the last week, had constantly monitored the feeds from his allies, his agents and his drone. Now it was as if a large water faucet had been shut off, revealing the severely eroded state of the pipes. For a moment panic threatened to overcome him - his mind automatically trying to send the command to his trode-net to turn everything back on, but the trodes lay in the other room and there was no response from anything.
Isaint forced himself to breath - in, out, in, out - until his heartbeat normalized again, then became slower and slower. Suddenly the darkness around him seemed to become lighter - or rather he suddenly glimpsed a small light in the distance. For an errant moment he thought someone had unplugged the keyhole, but as he concentrated on the light he realized that it had humanoid shape. He couldn't say if he was moving there or if it was coming closer to him, but it grew closer and in detail:
A large human, easily 4 or more meters tall, glad in an armor from Roman times mixed with medieval and renaissance implements. The figure carried a large sword and that seemed to belong to the 14th century, while the helmet and shield certainly belonged to a Roman Centurion. And all the time the figure was glowing bright as the sun although Isaint curiously noted that he had no problems looking at him.
'That's because you don't see me with your eyes, Pankratius. Took you long enough to get here.'
'You are reading my mind? Ah never mind, stupid question. Funny, you aren't the first one to say that to me.'
'I am aware of that, being in your mind and memories and all that.'
'Oh right. So I felt like you wanted to talk with me. What is this about?'
'You are mistaken, it is you who wants to talk with me. You have once again taken responsibility for others and despite your best efforts and intentions they have been hurt.'
'Yes. But this time it's different. Jackhammer and Iris are seasoned professionals who knew the risks.'
'Nex, Interfex and Carnifex also knew the risks and you are still blaming yourself for their deaths.'
'No shit. The difference is that I didn't put a bullet between Iris' and Jackhammer's eyes - well technically I put a bullet between Jackhammers shoulder blades, but that was just a capsule round. But, you know, I didn't have to shoot their head off to stop the Shedim inside them from killing me.'
'Yes. You know that it wasn't them, that their spirit had already moved on and that the shadows only used their dead hulls?'
'No i don't know it. They could have just been possessed. The wounds weren't that deep, they could have still been in there and I might have killed them for real instead of just banishing the Shedim.'
'Pankratius, stop. You've been thinking about that day for over five years now. It is time to let go of that moment. It's in the past, there is nothing you can do to change it.'
'Easy for you to say. When you slay something you can be pretty sure if it was a dragon or not.'
'But true nonetheless. This is not about scales or no scales. Although I have to say I disapprove of you getting involved with a drake. Those always work for a dragon and working for a dragon always means that some poor souls are turned into food or worse, turned into monsters. Speaking of which, you recently faced the Nachtmahr, a supremely evil being and it vowed to find you again.'
'Great, thanks for reminding me. With what I have in my mind the thing would have enough ammunition to send me into my own personal hell.'
'Nonsense. The Nachtmahr is powerful, but ultimately it can't do anything lasting to you - at least not as long as you don't allow it to. Your feeling of guilt and regret is your weakness and your strength.'
'This is getting awfully Zen for my taste.'
'Well, than stop interrupting me so I can explain. Secretly you are yearning to be relieved of responsibility for your actions. Getting possessed or infected would be the perfect excuse to follow your impulses without being held responsible. That's how the Nachtmahr could get to you and turn you into a monster.
I've sent you my wrath to shield you from that temptation, but I can't guarantee that I might be able to do so again next time.'
'Thanks for that by the way. It felt amazing to punch those four shadow spirits back to their home dimension.'
'Eh, de nada. While you are awake you are already very good at defending your mind. That guilt won't let you give up or give in while your friends are in danger. That's why it's also your strength. That will help you once you get to Lyonesse. I'm telling you nothing new if I say that this will be crazy dangerous for you and yours. You really have to learn to say no to women.'
'Very funny. Talking and negotiating is just not my strong suit.'
'And yet you can't seem to shut your trap for longer than a few seconds at a time. Now shut up and listen: I'm teaching you a way to get in contact with me without having to raid a cupboard and sitting in the dark for four hours. Conveniently it will also allow you to postpone sleeping and in case of a severe wound stop you from bleeding out in seconds. You'll also be able to sense every movement around you. That should give you enough time to react should the Nachtmahr decide to pay you a visit.
Ok. You may talk again.'
'Gee, thanks. But... it's just... Are you really real? I mean this is all in my head after all. How do I know that I didn't just go crazy when I killed Nex?'
'First of all, you shot Nex but it was the Shedim who killed her, capice? And secondly... does it matter? I'm looking out for you just as you are looking out for your friends. That's all that counts. So don't fuck this up on Lyonesse. I'm serious: If you get yourself killed there I'm never talking a word with you again.'
Isaint wanted to answer but became aware that his patron was no longer there and he was once again in the small cupboard inside which the air had become really, really stale. Dizzy he reached for the door knob, his joints creaking from the prolonged disuse. He wanted to push open the door but became aware that someone stood just in front of it - how he couldn't say. So instead of kicking it open, he just opened it slightly to let air and light in.
Rick looked at him curiously: "Did you find what you were looking for? You've been inside there a while."
Isaint smiled as he replied: "Yepp, long distance call and a bit of sensory deprivation to master a new skill..."
[Saturday July 11th?, 2076; Lyonesse, Metaplane]
Isaint marveled at his outfit - it was almost exactly a replica of what his patron had worn, except that he didn't carry a sword but his cestus instead. His Ruthenium Polymer Cloak had turned into a commanders mantle, still able to turn it's wearer invisible. The new helmet also had kept his abilities, including the chemical seal, although that one seemed to just be some kind of shadow covering his whole face, turning him into a truly faceless soldier. Gems all along the edges of his shield glittered merrily, ready to turn into a stroboscope display at his command.
Satisfied that his gear had come with him as promised he turned to his companions:
"If I had known you could bring a freaking GMC Banshee VTOL in here, I might have forgone my cloak, no matter how spiffy it looks now. Alright, let's move or we'll be to late for our own show."
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