Most of the evenings activities are a blur. From the first crack of the whip to now seems like watching a movie, someone else pulling the strings and making things happen. at a certain point I realized I haven't given the cab a destination. I have no idea how long I've been here, but that auto-drive is patient and devoid of judgement, so I give it the first address I have on hand; a bar from the list.
The cab speeds away and I stare out the window. This morning I was pleased to see a new city, now I don't see anything.
The cab informing me of my arrival prompts me to pay and get out, I wonder at the insignificant task, my hands going through motions I no longer fully understand.
I'm at the bar now, the bartender begins to ask me what I'd like, then sees my face. A moment later a bottle of something cheap and strong is placed before me, accompanied by a shot glass. I fill it. I drain it. I fill it. I drain it. I fill it. I drain it. I hesitate.
For the first time since the whip cracked I look around and begin to see. I'm in a dive. The walls are gratified, with a few holes. The Bartender is an orc with a dozen tattoo's and the clientele are equally adorned in leather and spikes. A few have already started watching me. I fill the glass and drain it again. How did I get here? where am I? Why can't I remember? The bartender walks back and leans over to talk to me, but I can barely understand him.
"Lady, I need you to leave. This is not a good place for you and I don't want trouble."
"I.... I don't .... "
I fill the glass and drain it again. Somethings wrong. Why can't I-
Someones grabbing me, pulling on me, forcing me around. I'm back in a cell. I haven't slept in days, or weeks, the guards want me to confess but I haven't done anything wrong. I haven't done anything wrong. I Haven't done anything wrong! "I haven't done anything wrong!"
A troll leans in over me, the scent of leather and beer heavy on him, a sadistic grin splitting his face "I don't care."
I think he hit me. I'm on the floor and theirs blood, but i still feel nothing. I turn, trying to understand and this time I see the blow coming as he kicks me into to bar. I gave up trying to defend myself, the mage cuffs made it impossible and security would have recaptured me. I'd never escape.
But maybe I could vanish. I scrambling through the pain to find the energies I need, wrapping myself in layers of deception until neither man nor machine can perceive me, and I bolt for the door, only barely registering the concussion of gun-blasts and the splatter of blood.
I'm on the street now, and its finally making sense. I'm in shock. Covered in blood, drunk, broken ribs. I'm in shock.