As she finished her words, as the weight of them stuck home, he placed a solitary finger over her soft, full lips. "Shhhh ...," he leaned forward kissed her around his own finger, even dragging it down slightly as he noted it with his teeth, "Don't do that, don't disparage yourself as less than a woman because if your injury. It doesn't define you, it doesn't make you any less desirable, or beautiful."
He sighed, her affections, her tender ministrations had riser something in him that he thought long dead. A desire, smouldering beneath the surface, a human desire, something that he had not let himself feel since the procedure that had, ultimately, saved his life. In the past year he had allowed himself to wander through life, like a ghost, or an echo, but not experience it. And certainly not live it.
"Please Rowe, listen to my words. Don't try to read into them, because I never want to tell you anything less than the truth. You have no idea how much I want to feel your body pressed to mine, but I need to remind myself of where we are and why we're here. As much as I find myself looking, and even trusting Vlad, he's a mobster, for perhaps one of the most notoriously violent criminal organisations out there. And we have anonymous men hunting us, trying to locate us, to extract information to their own ends."
He sighed, nibbled her lip a little as he lost himself in her eyes. Blue, piercing, like they were able to look into whatever soul he had left, whatever soul he hadn't traded for chrome and carbon edged steel.
He was concerned his words would hurt her, that she'd read them as rejection when it was the furthest from the truth. His truth.
"I don't like where we are Rowe, I don't feel safe, I feel vulnerable, exposed. I want to be with you so badly, it has kindness subverting i had thought died on the table when they put me back together. But not here, not now. I'm responsible for you, for B., and if I drop my guard, no matter how much I want to, is never forgive myself if that moment of want, of desire led to us getting captured ...," he left unsaid his deepest fear, the fear that a moment of weakness could lead to her death.
Even the thought of it caused moisture to accumulate in the silicon tubes that had replaced his tear ducts when his damaged organics had been replaced by his Ikon-Ziess cybereyes.