Goodnight doesn't turn around, and her voice is as level as Isaint's. "This is pointless. You do your thing, ride drag and don't trust the guide, and I'll concentrate on finding our way out of-" She takes a turn as she speaks, then curses savagely in Sperethiel. Ahead, the first tunnel out, the one that would drop them at the end of The Warrens and allow them to travel to Hellbound, is impassable. A rockslide, brought on by god knew what, has filled the passage. She turns back to the group at large and says, "Unfortunately, it appears that we'll be down here a little longer. This exit has collapsed, so we need to move on to the next one." Her voice is calm, pleasant, and reassuring, betraying none of her worry at being stuck down here even longer. She turns and continues walking as Solo shows Natasha the ins-and-outs of the submachine gun he handed her.
To Isaint, Goodnight sends a private message. <<Look. This is getting us nowhere. You think I'm a flighty, hypocritical girl and I think you're a bloodthirsty asshole. That's not likely to change anytime soon. After this, we can have it out. Frankly, I'd like to beat the tar out of you, and I suspect that you want to do the same to me. You're welcome to try if you think you're hard enough. But in the meantime, here's a little food for thought.
1. The only weapon I've seen you use is an armor-piercing, high-caliber weapon that can discorporate a spirit in a single burst. That is, by definition, lethal. So don't get on your high horse about an arsenal I haven't seen.
2. I haven't apologized for a goddamn thing, and I'm not going to. I don't even know where the hell that part is coming from. Its not violence I condemn, its bigoted, nonsensical violence born out of ignorance or fear. I never claimed to be a peace-loving hippy. But I assess and respond to threats and circumstances on an as-needed basis. Sometimes, yes, killing is what you need. Sometimes torture. But not always, and needlessly causing pain when there is no reason to cuts against every grain I have. I'm a dryad. Cruelty, pain, and negative influences physically affect me.
3. My notions of you are entirely based on what you have said, and a great deal of hard-won experience with violent, hate-filled legbreakers. If you don't like being ascribed cultural norms, then maybe don't play into them quite so damned much.
4. You don't know a thing about me. While we're leveling accusations of hypocrisy, I'd like to point out that you have no idea where my notions and thoughts come from. You're being just as judgmental and hypocritical as I, and for the same reasons.
4. Talk down to me like I'm just a pretty piece of ass again, and I will leave you down here. Yes, I'm pretty. Yes, I'm emotional. Yes, I'm a grrrrl. I'm also one of the most puissant mages down here, a 'runner in my own right, and perfectly capable of holding my own in a fight. If you don't believe me, start something and I promise I'll finish it. Just so we're absolutely clear.>>
The words only take a moment to write and send. Mental typing speed, wonderful stuff. Her snippy matrix message sent, Goodnight tells Solo- who had just rejoined her with Natasha in tow- "Good idea. I didn't realize you were packing more appropriate firepower under there." She walks in silence for a dozen more steps and then says, "I'm sorry about airing your problems. In my defense, with as enhanced as everyone here seems to be, they could already hear us, but I still shouldn't have done it. Something about that...man rubs me the wrong way."
Goodnight keeps walking and the silence is longer this time. Finally, when she speaks, her tone is low and sad. "Family. My sister." The words are lead-heavy. "I could have left her above, but she has a...medical condition. She could have tried to lead a normal life in the light, but she needs someone who cares for her, who understands. Acceptance isn't enough, and I'm the only family she has. I could have left her to her life, but then if anything happened I could never have lived with myself. So we talked." One corner of Goodnight's mouth curls up in a sardonic half-smile. "She thought the idea was great, of course. She's a teenager. The shadows sound so romantic at that age. So we walked. She chose a person who loves her and a life of excitement and danger over a life of...nothing. Fighting her condition, worrying about a...relapse, trying to get by. At least down here she has something to live for."